Changes

I appreciate my friends and the time I often spend with them, but lately I’ve been feeling that same sense of disconnection I experienced in my youth, which made me feel like a creature from a galaxy far, far away… The only difference is that back then, I believed I was an abnormal being, unfit for life in society; my values and interests were already quite different—sometimes even the polar opposite of theirs… Today, having fully accepted myself, I no longer feel the need to change myself, to conform to the norm, or to squeeze into some kind of imprisoning exoskeleton… Quite the opposite: I let them speak, not seeking conflict, yet defending—when necessary—my point of view and way of life… That said, despite all good intentions, I still feel a certain boredom…

Spiritual awakening isn’t entirely positive; through the irreversible changes and detachments it brings—as the heart takes the reins from the ego—it isolates us and complicates our relationships. Sometimes, if we revert to old patterns, it leads us to self-sacrifice instead of prioritizing ourselves…

I believe that’s why it’s now time for me to find a new place, one that is more fulfilling and nourishing for my soul…

It’s not a desire to be alone, but a true necessity… I smile when I think that those who embark on an inner journey often find themselves walking down a road, backpack in hand, in search of a new home…